Week one, day one! We're focusing this week on setting a healthy breakfast routine. I feel like I nailed this during the five-day cleanse, so this doesn't feel like work to me. Which is good, because I still need to finish my goal setting.
From the "diet" workbook:
List 3 goals that you would like to achieve over the next 6 weeks:
1. Beat the sugar addiction
2. Healthier relationship to snacking when I feel anxious
3. Sustainably lose another five pounds.
How will you feel as a result of achieving these goals?
1. More attentive in my marriage
2. More confident in my family relationships
3. Less fearful of health risks
Is there anything that could stop you from achieving these goals?
Those tapes that keeps playing, in spite of my knowing they are old. In spite of my knowing they aren't my story, but instead the story of the people who spoke the recorded words. The tape that tells a five year-old me, "You'd be so pretty if you could just lose some weight." And the tape recorded in Princeton that whispers conspiratorially, "I was told you are built like a linebacker...(but you are actually lovely)."
On a more practical level, my mother-in-law doesn't understand these sorts of shifts in eating (neither does my mother, but she lives 325 miles away).
Is there anything you can start doing now to make sure you achieve your goals?
- I'm not cooking with my husband any longer. This change in my routine helps because our food needs are so different. (This also makes me feel sad, even though it is better for both of us. I can feel the tears welling up inside.)
- I will give myself a daily 45-minute block of time - ostensibly after work - for exercise/movement.
- I need to let my mother-in-law know what I'm up to, so she doesn't keep asking me to come visit for food/wine/cake.
I want to find a way to symbolically release the tapes. And, I need to think about that a little more.